tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-87283749113955616832024-03-13T12:06:13.283-04:00Captive HeartKari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.comBlogger133125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-27571720176988650072019-02-18T19:53:00.001-05:002019-02-18T19:53:48.873-05:00Look Up, Child!You know how it is when you've kept that new favorite song on repeat for months, until you've started to wear out its appeal and have to take a break?<br />
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That's what happened to me with Lauren Daigle's new album, <i>Look Up Child</i>. The title track was one of my top listens, but it's been on hiatus for a month or so. Inexplicably, on this day, I decided to play it on the drive to a favorite hiking spot.<br />
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About half an hour down the trail, I had an encounter.<br />
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Hiking into the lake valley at a brisk pace, I'm aware of the beautiful surroundings but not fully engaged. I'm lost in the recesses of my mind, daydreaming familiar, addictive thought patterns that have no business being cherished there. Head down, eyes focused mostly on the ground in front of me, so that icy snow and gravity will not get the upper hand. The sun has been drifting in and out of clouds; the forest growing gradually brighter.<br />
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The moment was so sudden, it was almost like a reflexive reaction. I thought I saw a shadow soaring on the snow, flickering through tree shadows. Instantly remembering that I was in eagle territory and had not been watching the sky, my eyes went up. In the space of that second, I heard it in my spirit: "Look up, Child!"<br />
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And there, soaring high over my head against a sky now astoundingly blue, was an eagle.<br />
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For so many years, I longed to catch sight of these majestic raptors in the wild, but I've never been a serious birder who studies habits and habitats and seeks out the best places to watch. Yet in the last year, my Father has surprised me with several sightings! It's become for me one of those special love touches from God. He knows exactly what will delight each one of His children.<br />
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Where I had stopped, there was a perfect sun-dappled spot with a fallen limb to sit on, so I took the invitation and lingered there for awhile, drinking in the sun and the sky and watching for another glimpse of the eagle. And the train of my thoughts began to shift, as I pondered the meaning of this divine interjection.<br />
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I believe it was a call of mercy from my Father, as if He were saying, "Daughter, look up from the endless circles of your limited thinking, your anemic desires, and your shallow dreams. Look up; I'm here, and I'm waiting for you! I love you, and I freely give you Myself!"<br />
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Later, sitting by the water and enjoying serious communion with Father, I asked Him if I could see the eagle again. Some time after, as I was following the lakeside trail, the snow crunching emphatically under my feet, a huge bird suddenly winged from a treetop a short distance ahead. My breath caught; I strained to see what it was as it fled so quickly from my view, but I thought I saw the white head. When it circled back and returned to perch near the spot it had just left, I saw that it was definitely an eagle! Slowly I resumed walking, hoping to get closer. He took off again, but remained nearby, riding slow circles on the currents, and then gliding off towards the far side of the lake. I watched him still, a large speck, as he circled lower and lower, finally settling on the ice near that side. Regretfully, I never think about binoculars until I'm in these situations where I want them! I stopped there and trained my eyes on that distant bird, just enjoying the love gift from my Father, whispering my love back to Him. I stayed there for several minutes, until the eagle flew off once more and was lost among the trees.<br />
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Our heavenly Father never stops coming after us, even when our thoughts are far from Him. We can only love Him at all because He loved us first by making the way for us to come Home through the body and blood of His Son. He loves you completely as you are, but He's not willing to leave you unchanged. He already sees who you WILL be, and He is going to make you everything He intends.<br />
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Wherever you are, look up. Your Father has the words of eternal life. He is where the joy is found. He delights in declaring His love to His precious child.<br />
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Look up. He's waiting. <br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-41684609709227402612019-01-06T21:49:00.003-05:002019-01-06T21:49:43.731-05:00Resolute Non-resolutions (Journal reflections from the dawn of a new year)<br />
New years are for new beginnings.<br />
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Today, I make no resolutions. They are born of flesh and human resource and pride. They are short-lived and cannot change my heart.<br />
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Today, as I welcome the new year, I'm thinking of a new way of seeing. A new way of being in this world. I'm thinking about a way of living in alignment with who I already am in Christ--a practice of walking in agreement with <i>His</i> identity. This means I will practice putting off any and all identities I have tried to fashion for myself.<br />
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I am <i>not</i> my costume of flesh, nor am I any of the roles my costume plays. Daughter, sister, aunt, friend, introvert, hiker, kayaker, adventure-lover, cook, musician, singer. Fill in your own blanks.<br />
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I am not who I think I <i>ought</i> to be, or who I think others <i>expect</i> me to be, or who I <i>wish</i> I could be in my deepest heart. I am not some idealistic fantasy alter-ego, created in the playground of my mind.<br />
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Above all, I am <i>not</i> the author of my own story. I am <i>not</i> in control of my own life. I do not exist for my <i>own</i> pleasure and glory.<br />
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I am <i><b>not</b></i> God.<br />
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But by the <i>grace</i> of God, I am what I am...<br />
and by the <i>grace</i> of God, I <i>will be</i> what I will be in this coming year, and in whatever days He gives me.<br />
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By the grace of God, I will be what <i>He</i> makes of me.<br />
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Father spoke <i>this</i> to my heart during the New Years' Eve prayer service with my church:<br />
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"Stop identifying with yourself. Stop identifying with your blindness. Identify yourself only with Me."<br />
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It's true. I have perpetually identified myself with everything <i>I am</i> <i>not</i>, everything <i>I lack,</i> and all the ways in which <i>I fail</i>. Do you hear the theme? I have made <i>myself</i> the focus of my attention, and I've hated what <i>I see</i>.<br />
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If you can even call it seeing.<br />
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Rather, I've been blinded by all the judgment and offense I hold against myself, my circumstances, and my life for not being...More. Better. Worthy. Desirable. Whatever <i>I think</i> they ought to be.<br />
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Jesus said that our eyes are the lamp of our bodies. If the eye (perspective) is healthy, the whole body is full of light, but if the eye (perspective) is bad, the whole body is full of darkness (blinded). And if the light in me (what I think I can see) is darkness, how great indeed is that darkness! (Matthew 6:22-23)<br />
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The only way to see out of this darkness is to repent (turn) from my self-identification and choose to identify myself with the Light.<br />
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Jesus, the Light,<i> is</i> everything that I am not. He came to <i>be</i> everything that I can never be. He didn't come to make me a better me. He came to take me, hopelessly sick with sin, to death on the cross with Him. He came to make me an entirely <i>new</i> creation, buried into His death, and raised to a new, <i>utterly different</i>, life with Him!<br />
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And this new life, this "new Kari" as it were, is hidden <i>with Christ</i> in God (Colossians 3:3).<br />
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Why, then, would I ever identify myself with the old, dead, sin-sick Kari?! This is madness. What should be light inside me turns to darkness, and the new eyes are blinded by an ancient, deadly condemnation of self and the world...a venom that would, if possible, condemn even <i>God</i> as a liar!<br />
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"God is light, and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say we have fellowship with Him while we <i>walk </i>in darkness, we lie and do not <i>practice</i> the truth. But if we walk in the light <i><b>as He is</b></i> in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from <i>all</i> sin." (1 John 1:5-7)<br />
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So today I repent. Today I turn from the darkness of self-identification, and I turn to the light of identifying with Jesus Christ.<br />
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I will walk in the light <i><b>as He is</b></i> in the light, for,<br />
"when He appears, we shall be like Him, for we shall see Him <i><b>as He is</b></i>." (1 John 3:2)<br />
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"<i><b>as He is</b></i>, <i>so also are we </i>in this world." (1 John 4:17)<br />
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"And everyone who thus hopes in Him purifies himself, <i><b>as He is</b></i> pure." (1 John 3:3)<br />
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This is my hope and prayer in all the days to come:<br />
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I would know Christ, and Him crucified, and my life hidden with Christ in God. I would know (experience) His love and abide intimately in the reality of that love. I would walk in the Light, being <i><b>as he is</b></i> in this world.<br />
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I would live <i><b>in Christ</b></i>.<br />
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(Credits to my kindred-spirit-favorite-author Ted Dekker for some of the inspiration behind these reflections. Specifically <i>The Way of Love</i>, <i>The 49th Mystic</i>, and <i>Rise of the Mystics</i> by Ted Dekker)<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-32887441537837372382018-07-09T19:49:00.001-04:002018-07-09T19:49:19.672-04:00Blood On the PageToday a friend inspires me to write again. A friend I've never actually met in person. But one who has long fascinated me as he's allowed me to explore a bit of his mind and connect with his story through his writing. His name is Ted Dekker. Strangely enough, or maybe not so strangely, I remembered that someone had sent me a series of inspirational talks and articles on writing by Ted Dekker...over two years ago! At the time I never finished going through the resources, and eventually forgot all about it. I guess Someone decided today was the day to revisit. On my drive home, I began listening to a podcast by Ted, and so much is hitting home. Some of the following thoughts are borrowed from this insanely amazing writer.<br />
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Life is story. All of us are living a story. And often the shortest distance from truth to the human heart is through story.<br />
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Writing may or may not be your thing. I believe I have the heart of a writer. I have dreams of being a writer, but the guts to dig in there and do it day after day after day are lacking.<br />
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But one thing I know.<br />
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Whether or not I ever write much of consequence, or have any kind of earthly success in this pursuit, I want to be real. I want to be vulnerable. I want to show my true colors and let people see that I struggle, really struggle....a lot! Because Ted says that when people read a story, they don't want words. They want blood on the page. Everyone is looking for a living, breathing connection with another soul. A soul who maybe struggles a lot like them. A soul who is hitting walls and constantly trying to discover who they are and work through the deep dark of their story to find a way over those walls.<br />
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Because maybe, as I wrestle to discover and interpret my story, and I leave blood on the page--maybe my blood will mingle with yours. Maybe your soul will connect with mine. And maybe as I struggle and seek and begin to find the way over my wall, it might just help you a little bit to find the way over yours.<br />
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And that's what I want my writing to create. Whether I write ten thousand pages or only ten.<br />
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So consider the following lines a bit of my blood on the page.<br />
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<i>How many times will I fall on my knees again</i></div>
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<i>What I still haven't tasted?</i></div>
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<i>How many days will the flame within</i></div>
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<i>How many nights will I shut out the light</i></div>
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<i>Like my reborn identity curled up and died</i></div>
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<i>Gulping the poison like one desperate</i></div>
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<i>To end a life?</i></div>
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<i>How many years will I hang myself in chains</i></div>
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<i>Letting addiction take me again</i></div>
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<i>How many moments will I cry for mercy</i></div>
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<i>Searching for fire to consume the last of me?</i></div>
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<i>How many prayers will I breathe</i></div>
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<i>Wondering if wasted breath is all they'll ever be?</i></div>
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<i>How many days will I embrace unbelief</i></div>
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<i>How many times will I cower on the floor</i></div>
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<i>O my soul, how many more days, how many more nights</i></div>
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<i>How much life will be waste</i></div>
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<i>Spurning purest pleasure </i></div>
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<i>Who who save me, set me free</i></div>
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<i>From the pit where I dove headlong</i></div>
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<i>Who will sing me a louder siren song?</i></div>
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<i>Cut the head off the serpent</i></div>
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<i>Ignite the flame that cannot be spent</i></div>
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<i>Tear out the fangs of ingrown lust?</i></div>
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<i>Who will conquer, who will reign</i></div>
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<i>Will I welcome the return of the King?</i></div>
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<i>Will I feast, and know my fill? </i></div>
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<i>Will my mad mind be finally still?</i></div>
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<i>Will the demons I madly courted</i></div>
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<i>Will I stand a perfect bride</i></div>
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<i>The Fountain of Desire at my side</i></div>
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<i>Fully and forever satisfied?</i></div>
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<i>Lover, save me, or I die!</i></div>
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-24684635179514321452017-11-06T19:52:00.000-05:002017-11-06T20:01:27.307-05:00To Letchworth....With LoveAs a last farewell to summer, here follows an ode to my beloved Letchworth State Park, the place that has been my sanity and my Shangri-La for the past two years. This was written sometime in midsummer, and now as the clammy wet blanket of November settles over the northeast, it seems a fitting memorial. The seasons will come and go, land and people and culture and nations will change, we will walk through fire and water and wastelands...but the Creator of this beauty in which we rejoice is unchanging, unfading, and unfazed by the sands of mortal time. Someday His redeemed children will see His face...and it will completely eclipse the full glories of all the world put together!<br />
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Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-53893614371383053152017-10-23T20:35:00.002-04:002017-10-23T20:35:33.702-04:00The Gospel of JoshuaHere's a little gospel nugget God showed me from the book of Joshua this week. We are studying through the entire book in my D Group this semester. (D Group, by the way, is this awesome in-depth Scripture-centered, accountability strong, Christ-focused discipleship group model that is building disciples all over the world, and you should check it out! <a href="http://mydgroup.org/">Mydgroup.org</a>)<br />
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So I was reading in Joshua chapter 22, where Joshua appoints six cities of refuge throughout the land of Israel, appropriately placed, where the accidental manslayer may run for protection from the relatives who wish to avenge the death. God lays out specific guidelines for how to deal with these situations. There is a more comprehensive description of these laws in Numbers 35. Here's something interesting I noticed: after a proper trial determines that the killing was accidental, the manslayer must stay in the city of refuge until the death of the current high priest. During that time, if he steps outside the boundaries of the city of refuge, and the avenger discovers him there, the avenger may kill him and not be guilty of his blood. (Numbers 35:26-27) After all, God established a reckoning for the shedding of blood with Noah and his sons after the flood destroyed the rest of mankind. "Whoever sheds the blood of man, by man shall his blood by shed, for God made man in his own image." (Genesis 9:6)<br />
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Reading in Numbers, I again noticed this peculiar condition: "For he must remain in his city of refuge until the death of the high priest, but after the death of the high priest the manslayer may return to the land of his possession." (Numbers 35:28) The end of the chapter goes on to say that no one may pay a ransom for the manslayer to return home before the death of the priest, and that they must not pollute their land with blood. "...no atonement can be made for the land for the blood that is shed in it, except by the blood of the one who shed it. You shall not defile the land in which you live, <i>in the midst of which I dwell</i>, for I the Lord dwell in the midst of the people of Israel."<br />
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Why then is there a reprieve for the manslayer to return home?<br />
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In the days of the Old Testament worship of God, substitutional sacrifices were made for people's sins by shedding the blood of animals. The high priest presided over the sacrifices and represented the people before God. It appears that in the case of the city of refuge, God allowed the death of the high priest, as a substitute, to satisfy Him in the place of those who had accidentally taken human life.<br />
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Now we do not live under the old laws of the city of refuge and human high priests. There is no need. Why?<br />
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"Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need." (Hebrews 4:14,16)<br />
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Jesus, our High Priest, has been a refuge for the guilty throughout the ages. His sacrifice on the cross for all mankind was foreshadowed in all the ancient sacrificial rites commanded by God to the Israelites. By Him, those who believed were commended and made righteous by faith. Without Him, there would have been no refuge for any. None of us are accidental manslayers. We have all gone astray; we are guilty of rebellion against God and worthy of death. (Isaiah 53:6) <br />
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Yet in Christ's death, He <i>became</i> sin for us; His blood was shed as if <i>He</i> were the one who had shed all the blood that was on our hands, all the blood that has polluted the earth. And by His death, the land was cleansed. Not only that, but <i>we</i> were cleansed, that God might once again dwell among us, and <i>within</i> us. We were made innocent. By the death of our High Priest, we were given refuge from the just wrath of God, the Avenger. And by His resurrection, we were made new--not merely allowed to return to land of our former possession--but a new, holy, innocent creation, possessing a new and eternal inheritance as sons and daughters of God!<br />
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"And being made perfect, he became the source of eternal salvation to all who obey him, being designated by God a high priest after the order of Melchizedek." (Hebrews 5:9)<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-65503367039488046142017-06-18T20:45:00.000-04:002017-06-18T20:45:12.126-04:00Conversations With the CreatorRecently I had the pleasure of exploring Chimney Bluffs State Park on Lake Ontario. Breathtaking views of the jagged clay bluffs and the Caribbean flavor of eastern Lake Ontario await those who traverse the high trail. Even the forest has a wild jungle feel.<br />
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There is more than one trail to choose from; naturally I chose the one nearest the edge...just the right amount of pleasurably perilous for my taste!<br />
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After passing the wave of cliffs jutting into the blue, the bluff becomes gradually less steep. The water calls me. Far be it from me to pass up a favorable opportunity to get down to the strip of pebbled beach and meet the cold thrill! My slippery trip down the muddy bank is rewarded by a plethora of intriguing rocks worthy of a nature lover's collection. I am happily occupied with this treasure hunt for some time.<br />
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Presently I rest on a fallen log, my catch of stones secured in my pack, and I pull out my journal. Nothing is more inspiring for me than writing in the middle of creation's glory. As I muse over water and rock, clay and root, I write...I converse with my Creator in my favorite language.<br />
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Creator God--You have put so much in this world to delight us! Today my heart wonders at these things:<br />
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The fresh scent of rain, the cadence of it against roofs and windows--now pattering, now pouring.<br />
The greens of the forest, the variety of trees, bark, and leaves, the air sweet with blossoms. The mysterious magnetism of a packed dirt path winding through jungle.<br />
The incredible artistry in rock! Size and shape, variegated colors and patterns, and a million variations of each.<br />
The way You planned out how the forces of nature--wind and water and earthquakes and volcanoes--would affect and shape the elements, like rock and trees, sand, and mud cliffs.<br />
The crash of waves on a beach. The soothing ebb and flow. The thrill of cold water rushing up over feet and legs.<br />
The trilling of birds, and the way the most unassuming little sparrow reminds me of Your kind and tireless care.<br />
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Yet nature in all her glory can but speak broken phrases in the volumes of descriptive language that could be written, if there were such a worthy language, to express the beauty and wisdom and power and mercy and infinity of Your God-ness!<br />
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Why, oh why, do I ever desire anything besides You, God?<br />
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Why this fear and unbelief that leads me to doubt Your infinite goodness, perfect love, and kind, tenderhearted engagement in my greatest good--and that You would make my good fit within Your greatest glory?<br />
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Why the endless, mindless, obstinate, and deliberate chasing of pleasure placebos that can never fulfill me? Why the desperate struggle to hold on to these useless attempts to imitate the pleasure and satisfaction found in Your presence alone?<br />
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Why can I not remain at rest in you, my Vine?<br />
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Why do I continuously cast up these paltry pleasures within my soul like the restless waves of the sea upon land? You Yourself set the boundary for the seas. You said, "This far you shall come, and no further." And so it is with my fleshly pleasures. They can only go so far--they are trapped by a boundary set by Your mercy--they can never take me to real pleasure, the kind that fulfills my soul. Instead they leave me thirsty and hollow, always needing more.<br />
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Yet no matter how long I toss and foam, You wait for me to come to You. You pursue me; I cannot hide from Your presence. You wait for me to come to my senses and abandon myself to the Fountain of Life, my source and my salvation and my eternal pleasure!<br />
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Will I embrace Your freedom?<br />
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If I could live a fantasy, I'd be a wood-elf dwelling in Tolkien's legendary Rivendell. I cannot imagine anything closer to Paradise on this earth. A marvel of nature and high creativity, a haven of sacred beauty. Protected by stalwart stone cliffs, the water catapulting from dizzying heights and glittering millions of diamonds in moonlight. I would be intimately acquainted with all green and growing things and healing arts. The forest would be to me as a second skin. Life would be a graceful dance of starlight, rivers, trees, music, and wild things. Nothing would make me afraid, for I would be immortal, belonging to the Undying Lands, far wiser and stronger and skilled beyond the ways of mortal men. I'd be a fierce warrior and an even fiercer lover - binding myself to an immortal love that I would hold forever with a single heart.<br />
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But I am immortal. I am a citizen of the Undying Lands, an heiress to unimaginable wealth and glory, a vessel filled with light and hope and power far beyond the understanding of mortal flesh and mind. I flow with the rivers of Life that bring restoration to a dying world.<br />
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And if that were not enough, I belong to a Love that is eternal, unfading; higher, wider, deeper, and stronger than anything this world of flesh can contain. This Love is stronger than death and has the last word beyond time, space, flesh, and the grave. Nothing can ever quench my Love or separate me from Him! This Love <i>will not</i> let me go!<br />
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He died for me. He paid the ultimate price to make me His bride. But death could not keep Him, for He is the Author of Life itself! My Hero vanquished death, obliterated my sin that held me captive, and called me from the thrall of the dark lord into His Sovereign realm of life and love and light!<br />
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Now I am one with Him....forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever....beyond the grey shadows of this fading world to the bright Undying Lands...to infinity and beyond!<br />
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<i>"And there shall be no more curse, but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it. And His servants shall serve Him. They shall see His face, and His name shall be on their foreheads. There shall be no night there. They need no lamp nor light of the sun, for the Lord God gives them light. And they shall reign forever and ever.</i><br />
<i>"And the Spirit and the bride say, 'Come!' And let him who hears say, 'Come!' And let him who thirsts come. Whoever desires, let him take the water of life freely."</i><br />
<i>-Revelation 22:3-5, 17</i>Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-15231018694385802292017-01-31T21:49:00.003-05:002017-01-31T21:52:17.547-05:00A Threat...or a Promise?<span style="font-family: inherit;">Five months ago, God drew me into a unique fellowship called D-Group. It's been one of the best decisions of my life. Every week, I meet with a special group of sisters who are pursuing Jesus, seeking to be His disciples, and spurring one another on in our love for Him. Together, we study the Word, hide the Truth in our hearts, confess our sins, pray for one another, and hold each other accountable to grow up in every way into Christ.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">We've started off the new year diving deep into the book of Romans. This may seem a well-worn book for many of us, but the Word of God is alive, and so it never fails to amaze with new treasure and fresh revelations of our Life-Giver. Today I opened the pages to read an oh-so-familiar portion from Romans chapter 8, and lo and behold...He's doing it again! Breathing new life into my bones. May I blow a bit of it your way?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What threatens you right now? Changing circumstances? Financial hardship? Relational pain? Sickness? A difficult person? A tough job? Impossible expectations? The loss of something precious? The unknown? </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Whatever it may be, we all have something that shadows us with dread, those things that we view as threats to our well-being. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I find it fascinating that Romans 8:31 begins in this way: "What then shall we say to these things?" </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If you back-track to what Paul has just been discussing (verses 18-30), he seems to be referring to those things that we naturally confront as threats. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Suffering. That covers a lot. Life in this world hurts. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Futility and corruption. Paul says the whole creation groans in this bondage. The twisted fingers of sin have touched and marred every part of the perfect beauty that God first spoke into being. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Waiting. An unfulfilled longing for something we desperately want but don't have. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Weakness. Oh, how we hate this reality of our fallen humanity. We treat it like a despised disease. We search for a cure. We'll do everything in our power to gild over the cracks and make it look like we have it all together, while everything inside is falling apart. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">The fear of what will happen. It's not named, but implied. We fear the unknown ahead because we believe that bad things will happen.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">One more threat I see implied in this passage: the fear of walking through life unknown, unloved, and purposeless. That can suck a soul dry.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What, indeed, shall we say to THESE THINGS?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Let's finish Paul's thought: "If God is for us, who can be against us?"</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">This, Beloved, is what we can say! But how can we be sure that God is for us? Lean in; look closer. Do you see it? Every potential threat in this passage is paired with a promise from our Father!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--because He is preparing to reveal a glory in and to us that is indescribably greater than our present sufferings.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--because He has adopted us as His sons and daughters, and He has promised to restore all things in us and in creation that have been corrupted by sin.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--because He's given us the hope of a glorious future and the grace to wait for it with patience.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--because He's given us His Spirit to help us in our weakness and to intercede for us.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--because He works ALL THINGS together for our good. Nothing that is truly bad can happen to the child of God. Even what the enemy means for evil, God means for good to us. In the end, everything, whether we see it as good or bad, plays into God's hands.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">God IS for us--we can never be unknown, unloved, or purposeless, because He knew us even before he formed the world, and He has chosen us, called us to be His own, justified and glorified us!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Now stay with me....it gets even better! Paul introduces a beautiful progression in verse 34: "Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died--more than that, who was raised--who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us."</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Jesus died so your sin-enslaved self could die with Him. Then He was raised so you could be raised with Him to a new life, free to be all you were created to be! And not only that, but He is at the right hand of God, so that you can be with Him right now in the heavenly places--and not only that, but He is always interceding for you! Jesus never rests from representing you before the Father as your advocate, your justifier, and your interceder! Beloved, you are hidden WITH Christ IN God! Nothing can threaten you in this place...NOTHING!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So I can say with Paul...I AM SURE...that nothing will be able to separate me from the love of my Father in Yeshua, the Son! Consider this...nothing can ever separate the Son from the Father's love and their perfect union as Father, Son and Holy Spirit. So because you are IN THE SON, nothing can ever separate you, IN THE SON, from the Father's love and from eternal union with God!</span><br />
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Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-48594013803562386112016-10-25T20:09:00.000-04:002016-10-25T20:13:16.745-04:00Ride That Slide!Today's story comes to you complements of my mom.<br />
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My little bro, Justin, is a wonderfully unintentional teacher at times. Last weekend, he got to visit a fun farm with Mom and some of his sibling buddies. This farm features a corn maze and a lot of other delightful attractions, including America's Longest Slide!<br />
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In case you ever happen to encounter this prestigious slide, you should know how to get the best ride out of it. First, grab your feed sack. Get situated on top of the sack, then pull your feet in and hug your knees to your chest to make yourself into a bullet. Make sure no part of your body is touching the slide....push off and let gravity do the rest!<br />
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Justin, however, has never been through Sliding 101 and has his own ideas of how to make this work.<br />
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Each time the next row of sliders gets into position, the slide monitor gives his little spiel, including the following admonition: "Do not hold onto the sides of the slide on your way down!"<br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Justin is not listening to the speech, nor does he care</span>. All he's focused on is getting his feed sack and making sure his buddies are beside him and going down! And every time he went down, he tried to control his descent by grabbing onto the edges on either side of his lane. <span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: #263238;">T</span>he result was that he toppled backwards, had no control over his body, and ended up spinning sideways, losing his feed sack, and once even crossed halfway into another lane before coming to a stop with about 15 feet of slide left! He then tried to propel himself forward using his hands, in order to get to the bottom of the slide. He found out the first time that trying to stand up and walk to the bottom was not a good idea!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Maybe you've never tried to stop yourself mid-slide on a sliding board. But have you ever approached life this way? Do you sometimes try to control the trajectory of your life...in your job, in circumstances, in finances, in relationships? Have you ever tried to confine parts of your life into a box, like a safe zone, rather than face something unknown that feels wild and scary? We may even see this as being smart, cautious, and wise. But what if the cost of caution is our freedom? What if we never experience the fullness of the life God has for us because we're focused on playing it safe? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Take a lesson from Justin. You may end up knocked on your back, or turned sideways, or prematurely running out of momentum! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">What if, instead, we make ourselves less...get small and let God be bigger? What if we just relax and fall into Jesus and let the Holy Spirit take us like gravity? What if we let Him make us brave and take the adventure that comes to us from His hand? Sure, it's scary...but we might be amazed how much fun life can be! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">If my life and yours are God's work of art, we can trust Him to keep us on track. He has a hope and a future prepared for us beyond anything we can imagine! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">So let go of the sides....let go the fears, the doubts, the insecurities, the self-protection, the pride...we weren't made to hang onto these. They're thieves that steal joy and mar peace. They only drag us down and hold us back. The only thing we need to cling to is Jesus. </span></span><br />
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<i>"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." John 10:10</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">ENJOY THE RIDE! AND DON'T FORGET TO SAY "WHEEEEEEEEE!'</span>Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-90040105577635133672016-10-11T19:29:00.002-04:002016-10-11T19:29:43.945-04:00I AmAwhile ago, I watched <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bYTypUb_Jc4&feature=share">this spoken word poem</a> by David Bowden. And it inspired me. I sat with my journal and wrote what I heard God speaking to my soul. He knows exactly what we need and He speaks the language of our hearts. This is my I Am poem. If it encourages you today, thank Him.<br />
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I Am....with you - right now, right here<br />
In the uncertainty, the emotion, the excitement, and the fear<br />
I Am your Wisdom and your Way<br />
The Voice that tells you go or stay<br />
I Am your Future and your Hope<br />
Place your expectation in Me alone<br />
I Am your Father, I Am your Friend<br />
I am He who loves you fully, without end<br />
I am the One who draws you near<br />
Counts every sigh and every tear<br />
I Am your Beautiful Obsession<br />
Your Freedom from every dark oppression<br />
I Am there when you've lost your way<br />
And when all forsake you, I will stay<br />
I Am greater than your pain<br />
I'm turning your losses into gain<br />
You're never alone, never unloved<br />
Never unwanted, unknown, or unsung<br />
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Because I Am....<br />
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With you always, loving you to eternity and back<br />
Knowing you fully, and singing over you with joy<br />
In Me you have no lack<br />
I breathed you into life<br />
Chosen before the birth of Time<br />
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Come, Beloved<br />
Let your heart beat with Mine<br />
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Lose yourself in Me<br />
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For....I Am.<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-38373329248071928392016-08-23T22:00:00.000-04:002016-08-23T22:00:07.030-04:00What He SeesHey. I'm back. No excuses, and no apologies. I just need to write. So I want to share something precious Jesus gave me a few weeks ago.<br />
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I'm reading a book called The Forgotten Way by Ted Dekker, and working through the companion meditation/devotional book. One of the questions dealt with how you think God sees you. As I worked through the suggested exercise, this is what Jesus put on my heart.<br />
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I close my eyes and imagine Jesus standing in front of me. He knows how I'm falling again, right now. He knows all about my fightings and fears and the countless unanswered questions about the place I'm in and the way I'm supposed to go. He knows how I'm running after my old self-soothing patterns, running everywhere but to the Fountain of Life. What does He do? What does He say as He looks at me?<br />
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I see Him smile at me with a tender gaze that cuts straight through my soul, yet is only full of light, love, and pleasure. He takes both my hands in His and draws me closer. I think He even kneels down to look up into my face like a parent does with a child, or a man with his beloved. And this is what I hear:<br />
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"Look at Me, Beloved. If you only knew what you are going to be! What I am making you! If you could see what I see...a lovely garden in full bloom, fragrant with My favorite perfumes, bearing fruit that feeds the hungry, yet never runs out...fruit that delights My soul! I delight in you! I want you...My daughter, my chosen, my beloved! Don't you remember? I died so you could be with me forever...that's how much I want you. And I long for you to delight in Me. I will not force you; delight cannot be forced. I want you to delight in Me because you love Me more than anything, because you have tasted that I am good and I satisfy Your deepest hunger!<br />
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<i> I love you. Endlessly.</i><br />
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My love is not threatened by your present behavior, or by anything you will do in the future. My love for you is not measured by your level or lack of desire, surrender, passion, or faith. My love for you, daughter, is measureless and limitless. I don't see what you are now, in the skin of earth. The veil of mortality is invisible to My eyes and I see what you <i>will</i> be. <i>I see My own reflection</i> in your eyes and in your soul! Come to Me and I will satisfy you! Look to Me and I will save you! Walk with Me and I will carry you when you cannot take another step.<br />
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Don't listen to the poison whispers of the snake. I hurt for you when you listen and believe his accusations. That is not who you are. You are Mine! Not half Mine. Not sometimes Mine. <i>Fully Mine!</i> The evil one cannot touch you. He can only cast an illusion of darkness around you, and only if you allow him. Open your eyes, my Love! I'm right here...I'm always here with You! I am<i> in </i>you...closer than your heartbeat!<br />
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You are <i>untouchable</i> because you are Mine. You are <i>unstoppable</i> because you are Mine. <i>Nothing can threaten you.</i><br />
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Because it's all about<i> who I am making</i> of you. And at the end of it all, you will still be safe in Me. With Me.<br />
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<i>And you will be like Me, because you will finally see Me as I am.</i> And so you will see yourself in My eyes.<br />
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It's all true. WAKE UP, Sleeping Beauty! Remember WHO I AM! <i>I Am</i> your Truth. <i>I Am</i> your Way. And<i> I Am</i> your Life."<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-78356858683513687192016-03-05T22:18:00.001-05:002016-03-05T22:31:18.033-05:00Is It Sufficient?I realized something today.<br />
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All of my life, I have battled this fear that my relationship with God is insufficient. It has manifested in every part of my life. I believed I was never enough. Not pretty enough, not talkative enough, not like-able enough, not talented enough, not sociable enough, not funny enough, not desirable enough, not faithful enough, not good enough, not spiritual enough.....just not enough.<br />
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So I poured my energies into creating this world in my head where I could be enough. A world where I could be everything I ever wanted to be and have everything I ever imagined would make me complete; in this world, I was the heroine of my own story. All of this was a pathetic attempt to substitute for my "not enough". <br />
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It is no easy thing to crawl out of a fortress of false security. To walk away from your perfect world. To tear down your castles in the sky and come face to face with the raw truth that you don't have to be enough. You don't have to build a kingdom of "enough", because this isn't home. And it's not your kingdom anyway. <br />
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Do you feel unequal to the journey? The journey of walking by faith, of following Jesus, of obeying God, of loving Him with all your heart and loving your neighbor as yourself? Do you feel unequal to the mission of building Christ's kingdom on earth, of preaching the gospel, of making disciples, of fighting the armies of hell? I know. I've been there. I've camped out there for a long, long time. Not enough. Unequal to the task. Unprepared. Unable to rise to the challenge. Inadequate. Insignificant. Insufficient. <br />
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In recent weeks, God has pinpointed this fear in me: I'm afraid that my relationship with Him is not sufficient and never will be. I've been looking at it this way: I don't bring enough to this relationship. I have always wanted to be able to bring enough. But I can't. I bring nothing. Jesus brings all And He gives me His own life, His own beauty, His own faithfulness, His own obedience, His own love....everything that I can offer back to Him! <br />
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Today I had a revelation....I don't want a relationship with God that is sufficient. Why would I ever settle for merely sufficient? Who in their right mind is truly satisfied with a marital relationship or a friendship that is just "sufficient"? <br />
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<i>I want a crazy, vibrant, insanely awesome intimacy with Jesus!</i> I want a relationship that never stands still, that keeps moving forward, exploring more of His wonder and opening myself more fully to Him every day! It's the kind of relationship I didn't truly believe I could have with Him. But He's breaking down the walls. <br />
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I do believe I can have this....I believe this is the life Jesus came to give me...anything less is cheating myself and the world around me that desperately needs to see what life is.<br />
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In 2 Corinthians 3, Paul expresses the truth that can set us free from the bondage to self-sufficiency:<br />
"Such is the confidence that we have <b>through Christ</b> toward God. Not that we are sufficient in ourselves to claim anything as coming from us, but our sufficiency is from God, <b>who has made us competent </b>to be ministers of a new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit. For the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life."<br />
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The walls of self-sufficiency, the towers of duty, the banners of the letter of the law that say I must be enough are crumbling to the dust. I can move forward in my relationship with Christ with full confidence, knowing that He is sufficient to bring life to the world and build His kingdom and shine His light through me!<br />
<i><br />I believe!</i><br />
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Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-36668477187846139042016-02-21T18:33:00.001-05:002016-02-21T18:33:33.414-05:00Extraordinary SomebodiesHey Soul? If you've ever been haunted with doubts that God didn't know what He was doing when He made you? If you've ever wondered what in the world you were made for? If you've ever felt unwanted, unloved, inconsequential, inadequate, incomplete?<br />
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This is for you.<br />
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And for me. Because you'd better believe I've felt it. My heavenly Daddy is clearing out the haunted chambers of my heart and calling me to freedom beyond my self-protective walls. And I'm thinking you just might need to hear this too.<br />
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Have you ever believed you are a nobody? Then open your heart to this.<br />
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GOD DON'T MAKE NOBODIES!<br />
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GOD ONLY MAKES SOMEBODIES!<br />
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And that makes YOU a somebody...fully KNOWN and fully LOVED by your Father God, without ANY fear of rejection!<br />
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Fear is not what you were made for. God didn't give you a spirit of fear....He gave you a spirit of love and power and a sound mind! Jesus didn't die so you could remain enslaved to fear.<br />
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Jesus died to set you free.<br />
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Free from fear....fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of risk, fear of loss, fear of vulnerability....free from performance, free from pretense, free from condemnation, free from the letter of the law that kills.<br />
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Jesus died to give you life...life more abundant, joy more unrestrained, passion more dynamic than you can dream! He gives you HIS life....the very word of God became flesh to dwell in you!<br />
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You were made to be SOMEBODY.<br />
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Somebody with extraordinary gifts and a beautiful heart, custom-designed by your Maker to know Him, love Him, partner with Him, and enjoy Him in the unique way that only you can!<br />
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Your Father, Maker of the universe, looking at you right now with profound love and desire and pride and joy....more than you have ever dared to believe. DARE NOW. DARE TO BELIEVE. Choose to believe that God created you for greatness, for His pleasure, and for impossibilities to become possible in and through your life.<br />
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Your Daddy created you for favor. You are His treasure of inestimable worth....and He is so pleased with you! He sees your heart. he sees your desire to break free of every last chain that has long bound you and to love Him unfettered. He hears your cry, "I believe! Help my unbelief!" What could possibly please Him more than to hear you say, "Father, I want to see!" He is saying to you, "Wake up, my love! Wake from this dream of flesh in which you have entangled yourself. Wake up from the one-dimensional reality in which you see and hear and feel. Awake, and run to me!"<br />
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Will you say it with me? I BELIEVE! Here I take my stand! I don't have to feel it or see it. Father, I simply choose to believe that You made me to know and enjoy You and pour out Your love unfettered on this world in ways I have never yet dreamed. With You, I can. With You, I'm ready. So open the floodgates. I am somebody. I am Yours.<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-84181595408759786372016-02-14T20:25:00.002-05:002016-02-14T20:25:55.907-05:00Musings from Mount MorrisHow is it possible that I've been in New York a month already? And that I've barely seen more than two inches of snow at one time this entire winter....but no doubt I speak too soon. Winter ain't over yet. She finally decided to get serious about her temperatures, if not her snowy cloak.<br />
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So, wow....where to begin? This is actually the first truly relaxed weekend we interns have enjoyed since arriving at Lamplighter. It was a weekend for hibernating....one of my housemates literally hibernated in her room with an electric blanket almost the entire day yesterday! She's from the South and has never experienced sub-zero temperatures before, so you can hardly blame her.<br />
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I figure you might want to hear more about this place and the people I'm with. So here's a glimpse of life in our castle.<br />
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This is the century-old Victorian house that I call home. The photo was taken by my fellow intern Kayley on one of the few snowy days. You can only see a portion of the house here, One of these days I'll have to get a picture of the front. This spacious structure houses the Lamplighter offices, shipping area, and a room that has been appropriated as a bookstore on the ground floor. I live in the second floor apartment, along with three other girls. We have three bedrooms, a kitchen, dining room, and parlor (in a Victorian house, it has to be a parlor). There's also a separate guest room and small storage room upstairs. Plans are being made to build another bathroom and possibly split the second floor into two separate apartments.<br />
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Here you can see a partial view of the equally old and beautiful church building next door, which currently houses the book bindery and warehouse, which is really more like a unique library. This is where the old pipe organ was taken apart to make room for a recording studio. The bell tower is eventually going to become a prayer tower, which will be amazing. I haven't been up there yet, but I'm told you have a lovely commanding view of the village and surrounding hill country from the top!</div>
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This is a closer view of the church front on our street. It is one of several gorgeous old church buildings on the block.<br />
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This was shot along one of the walls inside the church sanctuary. See, you can't really call this a warehouse, can you? All of the extra stock of the books made here are kept on these stately bookshelves which were built last fall, just in time to host Michael Card at Lamplighter for a Christmas concert! That was an exciting time, and I'm sorry I missed it, although I've heard tales of staff and interns staying up half the night staining bookshelves and scrubbing the floors! Although no longer used as an official place of worship, the sanctuary retains the feel of a sacred space.The sun streaming through the stained glass between the shelves and falling across the old wooden pews is a thing of beauty.<br />
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Here I am inside the empty organ chamber with Peter, the bindery manager. This was one of the first nights of my internship, the day all the guts of the organ were removed, and we were all helping to clean junk off the floor so it could be swept and ready to begin the interior remodel. While we kept the lovely antique facade of the organ intact, the inside is now framed, insulated, and dry walled. It is ready to move on to the next stage....becoming a recording studio with the proper windows, soundproof design, and equipment! We will soon be consulting with an expert on the design, and we're asking God for the funds to continue the project. The goal is to have the studio completed for the Lamplighter Guild, which will be held here at the end of June.<br />
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As I mentioned before, I share an apartment with three other girls. Kayley is from Wisconsin. She and her brother Nathan are both interning here. Ann Elizabeth, the other intern, is from Mississippi. She's enjoying her first taste of a northern winter, for the most part, I think! Although it's not the most realistic taste with this weird winter. Alina is from a town in New York, a few hours from here. She came for the previous internship and felt God's call to stay on staff as the assistant bindery manager. Both Kayley and Alina were students at the 2015 Lamplighter Guild last July, so I had met them before. It's been fun getting to know them better.<br />
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So, what is a typical day like at Lamplighter Ministries? Not so typical. There is plenty of room for spontaneity and surprise....room for God to move! However, we always start the day with devotions and prayer as a group. Besides the interns, there are only a handful of staff who actually work at the headquarters. A lot of other people work for Lamplighter from remote locations. Despite the tiny team here, Lamplighter is becoming a far-reaching network across the globe! They just hired a guy to work full-time in shipping here. We are praying for an office manager who can help glue us all together....with a tiny staff and a new bunch of interns who don't really know what they are doing, things tend to be on the chaotic side! One of the overarching goals at Lamplighter is to do everything to the highest degree of excellence, and we want very much to achieve better organization in the office, but it's a great place for God to supply what we lack and show Himself strong in our weakness!<br />
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So yes, our days generally start at 8:30 A.M. with devotions and prayer, usually led by Mark Hamby, who is the founder and president of Lamplighter and the guy who does pretty much everything around here....although he acknowledges he can't do it all! He is a fantastic visionary, one of the most humble men I have met, and a passionate lover of the Word. His Bible studies are always rich and full of new meaning. That is my favorite part of the day. If I gain nothing else from my time here, I want to be ignited with ongoing, ever-deepening passion to love Jesus and drink deeply from the waters of life in His Word! After devotions, we hit the ground running! There is always so much to do. Ann Elizabeth and I have been spending the majority of our time working on various projects in the office, and sometimes going out on scouting missions with Mark to look at some property he wants to buy, or check out a lodging place we are reserving for the Guild, or sometimes to chase a sunset! We are helping a lot with preparations for the Guild. This is a huge event that usually takes an entire year of preparation, along with all the other irons Lamplighter has in the fire.....but this year, the decision to have the Guild was just made in early January! And whereas the Guild has usually been hosted at the Mohonk Mountain house in previous years, where a huge part of the responsibilities are taken care of by the Mohonk staff, this year the Guild will be hosted here in Mount Morris. So we have an impossible amount of planning and preparing and details to sort out by the end of June! There is housing to be secured, enough for one hundred students, plus staff and teachers and other guests. There are classroom locations to be sorted out, parking lots to be made, zoning regulations and other permits to obtain, remodeling to be done on some of the housing locations we already have or are potentially buying....not to mention the recording studio work that needs to progress, a rope challenge course to be built in the woods, books and books and more books to be made, and a conference season coming up in the spring!<br />
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Here I am in the office the first week, probably doing editing on the Guild website. There was a ton of stuff that had to be updated for this years' guild, being already several months behind! By the way, we've cleaned up that desk....it looks a lot better in the office now!<br />
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Sometimes we get pulled away from the office for a cleaning project, to work in the bindery, to help in shipping, or for any multitude of various and sundry other tasks. One day recently we got to help unload a skid of paper for the bindery. We built a stack taller than me with the paper on which the books will be printed! I have only spent a handful of days working in the bindery since the first week, but I've learned to use one machine confidently, which is the part of the process where you are putting the finished cover on the finished book block. It's the last step of the book, before it is inspected and sent to the shelf to await its destiny! That is my favorite job in the bindery so far, probably because it's the one I've done the most and I feel comfortable doing it.<br />
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This is getting long, but let me quickly share two major highlights of the last month. The first was a staff training/retreat that we had in Letchworth State Park last weekend. A lot of work went into pulling off this event, but we also had time to relax and get to know each other better as a staff. We hosted some guests, including Pastor Colin Smith, who is the most amazing Bible teacher I've ever heard. He brought his whole family and gave us a meaty feast on the Word during the weekend. We also participated in some training on how to function as a healthy staff, and did an exercise where we got an introduction to many of the favorite books in Mark's must-read library. It was a fun weekend, interspersed with singing, games, hiking, and a Saturday morning pancake contest! Despite Mark's boasting of his killer pancake-making skills, he was not voted the winner. Everyone did a great job though! It was a close race! Kayley creamed all of us with her amazing history knowledge in the game of Timeline. And I particularly enjoyed a ramble along this gorgeous little rushing stream cut through rock....umm, my pictures haven't made it off the card yet, but I'll post them on Facebook eventually.<br />
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The other highlight was the sort-of top secret meeting we hosted in our apartment with Mark, John Fornof, and Bob Liparulo, sharing ideas and top secret information regarding the life and history of Finnian Jones, who is featured in most of the Lamplighter Theatre audio dramas. This was a brainstorm meeting for the next ten years of Lamplighter dramas! It wasn't exactly secret because we decided to broadcast part of it on live-stream for Lamplighter friends to get in on the fun. The live-stream was successful, and all of us here enjoyed the evening immensely....especially since we get to be in the know about some stuff that no one else gets to hear!<br />
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Here's a shot from our live-stream meeting. This is in the "parlor" of our apartment. On the far left you can see writer Bob Liparulo, who I later realized wrote the Dreamhouse Kings series, which I read several years ago. That was a thrilling read, especially suited for teens and young adults! I'm sure he's written a lot more besides, and now he is also writing for Lamplighter Theatre. To Bob's right is Mark Hamby, the visionary behind it all and executive producer for the Theatre. Next to Mark is the incredible John Fornof, long-time writer for Adventures in Oddysey and now producer, director, and writer for Lamplighter Theatre. John is also an amazing guy to meet in person. Then we have Jen, a homeschool mom who has recently become involved in promotional writing for Lamplighter. Down in the right-hand corner is Angie, Peter's wife, and Peter is on the far right. He is the bindery manager. They and their three young children moved to Mount Morris over a year ago to work with Lamplighter.<br />
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Ok, I think that gives you a pretty well-rounded picture of what I've been up to this past month! It's been a wild ride, and I think it's going to get wilder! I will be here for at least two more months, Lord willing. Thanks for hanging with me....I hope you enjoyed it!Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-9453490336547672992016-02-07T22:11:00.001-05:002016-02-07T22:11:54.125-05:00Beautiful DustAll this earth....<br />
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Could a garden come up from this ground at all....<br />
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You make beautiful things, You make beautiful things out of us.<br />
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These lyrics created my sound track earlier this evening as I wandered through an ancient cemetery littered with broken-down headstones and the dried-out stumps of once noble trees.<br />
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Why was I wandering through a cemetery, you may ask? For one, because I like it. I find a sacred sort of hush settling over my soul in a cemetery. Especially a really old cemetery.<br />
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Secondly, I took a side trip into the cemetery in my quest to gain higher ground from which to view the sunset. After a few hours of lingering in the woods, I was on my way home as God's brush strokes began to color the western sky. Incidentally, I have a boss who chases sunsets. I love that! He took a friend and I on a sunset chase the other week. I had never chased a sunset in a car before, but they do have a way of catching my breath and demanding my attention with a holy kind of awe. Anyway, chasing a sunset on foot is a little tough, so when I saw the cemetery on higher ground, I went for it. I believe God put the song Beautiful Things on my heart to play on my phone as I walked onto that little piece of long-forsaken ground.<br />
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You see, I'd been praying out in the woods. I had to do some dragon slaying today. In the midst of trying to figure out how best to function in the intensity of Lamplighter Ministries, how to let go to God when I'm in over my head, and trying to face the question of why God brought me here and where I fit in this picture, the enemy has been gnawing at the edges of my soul. He's been whispering suggestive memories into my mind, memories of broken cisterns left behind. Wearing away my resistance, murmuring that I need some outlet, some way to release the pressure building up....reminding me that I can still go back to a comfortable addiction....that my escape hatch is never far away.<br />
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Thank God, I am not unaware of the dragon's devices. I know exactly what He's trying to do. When he sees one of God's blood-bought children getting dangerously close to his borders, and he perceives that this one is about to become a real threat to his kingdom, the enemy will do anything to stop it. He knows the hold a particular addiction had on me, and he is trying desperately to lure me back.<br />
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I believe my Father has brought me to Lamplighter at this time to do a new work in my life. I believe I'm standing on the brink of falling deeper in love with Jesus and discovering a life of more abundance and more power and yes, more warfare than I've ever imagined. Satan wants to cut me off at the knees. He'd take me back to the point of no return if he could. But when he messes with God's children, he messes with our Daddy! And our Daddy says, "Ain't nobody gonna mess with My child!" And He gives us an arsenal of Truth and Love to throw at the dragon. I let Satan have it today! I think it always comes back to remembering who we are. I am Christ's! Satan cannot have my mind, he cannot have my potential, he cannot have my time, he cannot have my effectiveness, he cannot have my life! I am Christ's, and Christ will not give me up!<br />
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After I gave Satan what for, Father and I had a sweet time together. I was praying simply and honestly for all His children, specifically the Church in America. Over the weekend, we had a Lamplighter staff training and retreat, where we fed richly on God's Word and were challenged with a message that made us look honestly at the dire picture of Christianity in today's culture, but also sounded a trumpet blast of hope. We learned that God works in and through individual lives to change the big picture of the world. He can use as many or as few as He chooses to win mighty victories for His kingdom. If we want to be prepared for God's use, we must have a vision, both of what the world could look like, and what we want our own lives to look like as we move in pursuit of the promises of God.<br />
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This is only a condensed bit of the Scripture feast we had during our retreat. But the point that God had me focused on in my prayer today was that although this world is a dark place where Christians have largely been driven into holes in the ground, metaphorically speaking, all He is looking for is a Daniel. God is looking for one who will stand out and shine like a star in an ocean of night. He wants to use me. And He wants to use you. And even when we look at our lives and see all this wasted time, wasted opportunities, wasted potential....even when we feel like the dried-up bones of a dead army....even when we realize that we've been drinking from polluted wells and neglecting the Fountain of Life and we're dying of thirst in the desert....even if we question how God could possibly redeem the Church of America today, or how He could redeem our own lives and use us to bring His kingdom on earth....<br />
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....our Father is the God who breathes life into dry bones. The great I Am who created everything out of nothing. The God who uses a few faithful men to defeat armies of thousands. The God who has promised to make everything new. The God who never stops doing good to His children, despite our desert wanderings and our adulteries and all the times we cower in holes trying to hide from the enemy and the days when we realize we've become captives in a heathen land and we think it's really all over. Our Father is the Author of life, the Artist who creates beauty out of dust, joy out of hopelessness, life out of death, valiant overcomers out of trembling cowards.<br />
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In that light, it seems fitting to walk through a graveyard singing about all that is lost being found and beautiful things coming out of the dust. From the dust we came, and to dust we shall return. But that is not our ending. Because our Father is the Beginning and the End. He is our home. He is our destiny. His immortal breath is in our spirits. And He is endless. We stand on the brink of forever. And when this earth of dust is dissolved, our God will make all things new. The lost will be found. All the sad things will come untrue. Death will be swallowed up in victory! Mortality will give way to immortality. And the King of Kings will have His bride, pure and holy and white as a lily....perfectly one with Him into infinity!<br />
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And there will be no more straining for partially veiled glimpses of the sunset from cemeteries. We're going to walk straight into the sunrise, into God's country, where there is no night.<br />
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So from one speck of beautiful dust to another.....<br />
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Remember Whose you are. Rise up and shine. We <b>will</b> overcome the dragon.....by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of our testimony. Worthy is the Lamb who was slain!<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-8637224750375706962016-02-02T21:55:00.000-05:002016-02-02T21:55:16.642-05:00Hold On Tight!Now that I am two weeks into my internship, I shall attempt to describe Lamplighter Ministries in one word.....<br />
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Working here feels rather like hitching a ride on a runaway train. Awesome and scary! Spontaneity is a regular occurrence at Lamplighter, and there's a sense of wondering when the train is going to jump off the tracks....or am I going to get thrown?</div>
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I like that word picture because it's dramatic. I don't mean to sound like I'm literally hanging on for dear life, but let me just say this isn't a normal place. I mean that in a good way. But some days I have felt like I'm inwardly hanging on for dear life....just trying to sort out the multitude of information coming at me and get some sense of my place here. </div>
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It's too soon to tell if I love working at Lamplighter. There are some things I love, let's put it that way. I always need an adjustment period in a new place, however, I'm not sure Lamplighter Ministries is the kind of place you can ever truly adjust to! I'm not sure how to even explain this. Lamplighter is a small organization with enormous dreams and expectations. The small group of staff and interns clustered at the headquarters is like Gideon's band of 300 men against a vast army of Midianites! To the human mind, it seems impossible to try to accomplish all that Lamplighter has in the works, and to do it to the highest degree of excellence, with such a small number of people. Yet God has moved in miraculous ways over and over again on behalf of this small band. It's exciting to be part of a group that has seen God come through in dramatic ways. When my time here is finished, I want to be able to leave with stories that strengthen my faith and dependence on God and make His glory evident to everyone I tell.</div>
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Our schedule here doesn't allow for a lot of extracurricular time, so if I don't make myself sit down and write something every so often, it's not going to happen! So rather than continue with my deep thinking which doesn't tell my readers a whole lot, let me tell you about some of the adventures of the past two weeks. </div>
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The very day I arrived in Mount Morris, I got to ride along on an errand to Rochester and experience an epic build-your-own pizza place....I'm no longer certain that authentic Chicago deep dish is the best pizza I ever had!</div>
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My first official day of work as an intern, I saw a nineteenth-century pipe organ dismantled to make space for a recording studio on the Lamplighter campus! This gorgeous organ was built into the old church building that Lamplighter purchased and now uses as a book bindery and warehouse, among other things. The organ no longer played and would have cost a pretty penny to repair. A recording studio is high on the list of dreams for this ministry, as they have produced 18 dramatic radio theatre albums that air on 1800 radio stations in 29 countries! The team is gearing up to go to London at the end of February and record two new dramas. So you can imagine how wonderful it would be to have a studio on campus where they can continue to record these life-changing stories....and think of the excitement of having world-class actors visiting the little village of Mount Morris! In just two weeks, the transformation from organ to recording studio is almost finished; now we are awaiting funds to begin designing the acoustics and install equipment.</div>
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Over the past week in particular, I have been hard at work editing and updating the website for the 2016 Lamplighter Guild....a fun though oftentimes frustrating project. I'm learning just how much work goes into managing a website....there are so many details to keep track of and it's easy to miss little things if you are not giving your full attention. I really am enjoying the work on Guild details, since the Guild had a major impact on my life, and that is what brought me here to Lamplighter!</div>
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I've also spent a little time in the bindery, learning the process of making books by hand (with a little help from machines). Printing, cutting, cover-making, separating out the individual book blocks, gluing spines, more cutting, head-banding, cover-stamping, and gluing the finished cover on the book...it's given me a much greater appreciation for the aesthetic quality of Lamplighter books!<br />
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Everyone has been involved in a lot of clean up....as you can imagine, tearing out the guts of a huge pipe organ and building the insides of the studio room makes for a great mess! We spent hours organizing over 700 pipes of various size and shape, plus other sundry organ pieces, into storage. Plus wiping century-old dirt off wood pieces. Plus cleaning up the sawdust that floated all over everything in the former church sanctuary.<br />
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The other interns and I have gotten crash courses in various computer programs, taken jaunts around the town with Mark Hamby, our boss, for various business related purposes, learned the basics of how to find out who owns property, visited the best coffee shop in New York, took a moonlit tour through the woods, done "fake" work for a catalog photo shoot, etc, etc, etc!<br />
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Somewhere in the midst of all this I've had a few chances to ramble in the woods and hike in nearby Letchworth State Park. This coming weekend, we are having a staff training/retreat at the park, so we will hopefully get to see a lot more of this gorgeous area they call the Grand Canyon of the East. Waterfalls, here I come! You won't catch me complaining about this unusually warm winter....but it would be fun to have enough snow to go tubing in the park, just for one day!<br />
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There is so much more that has been packed into the last two and a half weeks, but I hope this will give you somewhat of a picture of what I'm doing so far. I will try to make time to write on the weekends when it is not late at night and my brain is not dead! Thanks for coming along with me on this wild ride....it is never boring here at Lamplighter!</div>
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Friends, it is my delight to share with you the new door God has opened to me as I seek to probe further into His heart and climb further up in the purposes of His kingdom!<br />
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If you have been following my posts about the Lamplighter Guild and the impact that it made on my life, then you can probably imagine how thrilled I would be at the chance to become more involved with the ministry behind it. When I learned that Lamplighter Ministries has internship opportunities for former Guild students, a seed was planted in my mind. I began praying about the possibility soon after Guild week. <br />
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Every student was sent a post-guild survey to fill out, allowing us to give feedback on the week....what God taught us, what we enjoyed the most, how can they make it better, etc. It took me over a week to sit down and fill mine out, because I had so much to testify about my experience that I didn't know where to start. Imagine my surprise when I received an email in response to my survey, saying that they saw something in my writing which caused them to ask if I'd be interested in doing some writing for Lamplighter Ministries! I was overwhelmed with the possibilities that seemed to be suddenly blooming on my horizon...you see, I had already been approached about the opportunity in Romania. I was praying about that and already sensed that it was a God thing. So now I began to wonder if I could do both....go to Romania and write for Lamplighter! I sincerely hoped the two would not oppose each other, because I thought both were open doors from God. Working with Lamplighter was becoming my new dream, and I was intensely interested in pursuing the invitation!<br />
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Over the course of the next several days I was in contact with Lamplighter leadership and waiting to hear more details on what they had in mind, yet I knew that I needed to give my answer about Romania soon. As I was praying one morning about the tension in my heart, God showed me that I was holding back from deciding about Romania out of fear that I would lose the Lamplighter opportunity, but that I had no valid reason not to say yes. I believe He was telling me to give my yes to Romania in faith and surrender the results to Him. So that day I wrote to my missionary friends and told them I was coming to Romania. And the very next day, I was finally able to speak with someone about the opportunity with Lamplighter. I learned that what they had in mind would require me to come to their headquarters and start within weeks....even sooner than I would have been free from my current commitment with my grandparents. Because I had already made the decision to go to Romania, the timing would not work out. Yet even during that conversation, I had peace that I made the right decision, and in my heart I knew that the door to Lamplighter could still be open for another time. They encouraged me to pray about coming for an internship, which was already on my heart. <br />
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So during the next few months, as we worked to get my grandparents through their transition and I embarked on my two-month venture in Romania, I continued to pray about Lamplighter. The dream to work with the ministry in whatever capacity I could stayed alive in my heart, and shortly before I returned from Romania, I officially applied for an internship. By the time I got home, I was 90 percent sure that I'd be going to serve with Lamplighter Ministries. <br />
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The month and a half since has been a time of wrestling, of seeking confirmation, of discussing details with Lamplighter leadership, of fighting enemy attack....all in the midst of the holiday clamor at home and travels and family drama! This has felt like an uphill climb! But if it had been smooth sailing, there would be cause for concern. Lamplighter is a God-honoring, fast expanding ministry....a bright light in the darkness....and the team there is frequently experiencing enemy attack because of the threat they pose to Satan's kingdom. It should come as no surprise that I've been under attack in my quest to join them....in fact, I take it as confirmation that God is leading me there!<br />
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What is Lamplighter all about, you may ask? At the close of Jesus' earthly ministry, before He returned to Heaven, He gave all of His present and future followers a command: "Go therefore and make disciples of all nations....teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you...." Matthew 28:19-20 <br />
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Biblical discipleship is at the heart of Lamplighter's ministry. Borrowing from their website, 'The mission of Lamplighter Ministries is to make ready a people prepared for the Lord, by building Christ-like character one story at a time.' How did Jesus communicate life-changing truths? Through story telling. As a publisher of exemplary books and creator of compelling audio dramas, Lamplighter Ministries strives to produce stories that will do the same. Since the printing of their first book in 1997, Lamplighter now has over 200 titles....each carefully chosen because the Word of God comes alive in these stories with the power to transform lives. As they seek to creatively connect God's Word to the hearts of those who are perishing, the leadership at Lamplighter is also committed to inspire and motivate the next generation of Christ's disciples to live a life of excellence.<br />
Their focus is two-fold: 'Preparing people to serve the Lord through internal character development and external career preparation.' 2 Peter 1 tells us that as followers of Christ, we are called to partner with Him in His divine nature! As Master Creator, Jesus' nature is to create....and He invites each one of us to imitate and reflect His creative excellence in the unique gifts He has given to us, in a way that tells His redemptive story to the world.<br />
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The mission of Lamplighter's internship program is, and I quote: 'to promote the development of gifts and talents in an atmosphere where passion and faith meet purpose. Each intern will be encouraged to grow in wisdom and an intimate knowledge of God's Word, to become a lifelong learner, and a dedicated follower and creative reflection of Jesus Christ.' I believe God is leading me to Lamplighter as an opportunity to embark on a path of greater discovery. My hope is to discover how I can develop and cultivate my God-given abilities into the highest level of skill and excellence. As an intern, I will be there to serve the ministry wherever there is need. This may or may not involve writing, which is my primary creative passion, but there will be plenty of opportunities to learn and grow. The possibilities include work in the book bindery and bookstore, assisting with office support, customer service, promotion and marketing, landscaping and general maintenance. <br />
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This is not a platform for self-promotion, but rather a stage for God to showcase His incredible strength through my weakness. I've been fighting a lot of fear and doubt because I know my history, I know my own failure to make the most of every opportunity, and I know I am not sufficient for the task that lies before me.....BUT MY GOD IS! In His amazing mercy, God continues to work to strip away self so that I can fix my eyes on Jesus, who is the Author and the Finisher of my faith! I've been told to expect my weaknesses to be exposed in my time with Lamplighter, and that the more vulnerable I'm willing to be, the greater potential there is for growth and transformation. With this in mind, my prayer is that God develops the humility of Christ in me, teaches me to glory in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest upon me, and brings me to the full conviction of His all-sufficient nature! <br />
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This post is my attempt to create a basic picture of where I am headed for the next few months. I hope it is coherent and interesting. I'm leaving in two days (this Friday!), it feels a bit like jumping off a cliff, and focus is hard to hold onto in the chaos of last-minute preparations. I will be interning at Lamplighter headquarters in Mount Morris, New York. The internship is potentially three months long, but it will be evaluated one month at a time. There may be possibilities of a longer, more in-depth internship after three months. I hope to keep my readers informed about my doings, but I don't know how much time I'll have for blogging. However, keep your eyes open for a Facebook page where I will try to keep my friends updated, post prayer needs, and provide links to any related blogging. I will also post links to Lamplighter's website, for those who are interested. <br />
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Until next time, my friends.....let us run with endurance the race set before us! "Behold, I AM with you always, to the end of the age." -Jesus, from Matthew28:20Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-90893030339787806022016-01-03T21:37:00.000-05:002016-01-03T21:37:53.734-05:00Romania: Turning The PageHello my dear friends and readers! My apologies for not posting more while I was abroad. Writing is my passion, but it also requires a large investment of personal time and concentration for me to capture my thoughts and impressions and pin them to the page. Sometimes I chose to invest time in the people around me rather than write....and other times I was just plain lazy. So now I find myself a month past the end of my short sojourn in Romania, but I would like to share with you a bit more of what we did while I was there.<br />
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Since Thanksgiving is an American holiday, it is not traditionally celebrated in Romania, although I believe some Romanians have adopted a Thanksgiving Day of sorts....I'm not quite clear on that, though. The missionaries who work together in this city have a big Thanksgiving meal and celebration with friends, but this year they were waiting for Scott and Carolyn to return from the States. So we had no special plans for the day, but I wanted to do something to celebrate, since I couldn't be with my family. I invited our friend Edith to join us for dinner. It wasn't turkey with all the trimmings (I confess, I bought rotisserie chicken to make it easy on myself)....but we made a yummy meal, shared it with a friend, and enjoyed a game of Sequence....followed by dessert! We enjoyed ourselves quite well.<br />
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One chilly Saturday, the girls started pulling out Christmas decorations and craft supplies. They love getting creative with crafts! The four of us ended up making hours of fun with glitter, glue, and foam cutouts.<br />
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By late November, Christmas had come to the city! I can handle living in the city for short periods of time, but it is definitely not my abode of choice. However, I do love the way cities get decked out for the holidays! One Sunday evening, the girls and I enjoyed a stroll through the light-decked center of Arad. There was a rock concert going on, and let me tell you, the place was packed!<br />
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Then on the first of December, we hopped on a train to visit the nearby city of Timisoara for the day and see the festivities in honor of Romania's national Union Day! This is the celebration of three major regions becoming the country of Romania. That happened in 1918, if I remember correctly. Of course, you can always google it if you really want to know! We met a friend who lives in that city and spent the afternoon eating and hanging out at the lavish mall. In the evening, we all walked to the town center and participated in the countdown to officially light up the night! The display in Timisoara is bigger and more beautiful than Arad's. The center was packed with people and it started raining later in the evening, but we enjoyed ourselves nonetheless.<br />
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As you can see, we made a lot of fun memories! Everyone loves sightseeing and celebrations, but I am also grateful for the many little daily opportunities God gave me to enter into the girls' lives. Things like attending Friday night youth church with them, working together to help clean the church and set up for a garage sale that raised money for a new church building, going to watch a basketball game, walks and photo shoots in the park and with the dogs, eating together, practicing Romanian words, playing basketball, going to the movies. Ana and I were able to read all the way through the Jesus Storybook Bible by the time I left. This was a special bonding time for the two of us, and it was great to watch her grow in her English reading skill and to talk about the Scriptures together. <br />
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">I wish I had
something really profound to wrap up my two months in Romania, but I
don’t. </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Maybe the profundity of life is
hidden in the small things.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Like day by
day, moment by moment, just being faithful in the things God puts before
us.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Learning to be present for the
people around us.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Smiles.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Laughter.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;">
</span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Making paper Christmas chains with mental patients.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Cuddling and playing with a baby in the
hospital.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Reading Bible stories from a
kids’ book.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Fitting puzzles together
with a friend.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Glue and glitter and
creativity around the table.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Playing a
game.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Eating together.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Hugs.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;">
</span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Playing worship music.</span><span style="line-height: 115%;"> </span><span style="line-height: 115%;">Popcorn
and a movie.</span><br />
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<span style="line-height: 115%;">Like learning
a new language, life often feels like it is made up of a lot of disjointed
“words”….unrelated events, random encounters….making sounds but not making much
sense. It is hard to put full sentences
together, let alone have an intelligible conversation! Living intentionally doesn’t come easy….it
takes long, hard practice. Daily
practice. If we take the time to
contemplate our life and make the effort to live well, day after day, I believe we will
begin to see patterns and better recognize the hand of God. God gives moments of clarity, but they may
come years down the road. <span style="font-size: 14pt;"><o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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I don't know if God will call me back to Romania. He may take me someplace altogether different. Maybe He will plug me into a place where He wants me to fully invest my heart for the long-term. Or maybe I'll always be a wanderer. But I believe that my Sovereign God uses every situation, circumstance, opportunity, and person in my life to shape me according to His purpose....that I may be a vessel fit for His glory and a bold proclaimer of His story to the world.Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-65776416169642717232015-12-29T21:59:00.001-05:002015-12-29T21:59:16.273-05:00The Backyard<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I intended to post a wrap-up on my stay in Romania....truly I did! I've been back in the States for nearly a month now…..I’m obviously a little behind. Or a lot behind! First I blamed it on jet lag. After that, I don't know exactly what happened. I crashed. And life won't stop. The next bend in the road is coming up fast! So I've never gone back to finish what I started....and I did start that post, I really did! Maybe I'll get back to it?</span><span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"> But for now, I’d like to share something that God put on my heart after I returned from Romania.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">One night,
as I was lying in bed, I asked God a question. “What happened?”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Meaning,
what happened to that passionate thirst for His fellowship, to those rich, deep
hours spent with Him, drinking in new insights He was showing me after the Lamplighter
Guild this past summer? What happened to my new purpose
to begin doing battle in prayer after seeing the movie War Room back in August….the
determination to fight back against the enemy’s bid for my effectiveness, my
fruitfulness, my potential in God’s kingdom? What happened to those intentions
I had when I left for Romania….that I was going to use my free time to learn
prayer warfare and to write more consistently? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">“Lord…..what
happened?”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Would you
like to know what He said?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">He brought
to my mind these lines from a song. It
pictures something similar to a quote I’ve heard from C.S Lewis, I
believe. He was talking about how weak
our desires are compared to what God wants to give us and to do in our
lives. Lewis said we are like children
making mud pies in the slums, and we just go on doing this in our blissful
ignorance, because we can’t even imagine what is meant by the offer of a
holiday on the seashore. We are far too
easily satisfied. These are the words
that came to me….<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">“There you
are in the backyard<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Covered in
mud in the backyard<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">If you only
knew the joy I have for you<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">But you’re
far too pleased in the backyard.”<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">And I get
it. My backyard consists of the things
of this earth that dazzle and distract, that split my focus and prevent me from
being fully effective in anything to which I set my hand. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">It’s my smartphone,
which after my choice to leave it off the grid for my two months overseas has
inexplicably entangled me in its time-sucking vortex just as much as I was
before! It’s things like Facebook and
Youtube that play on my tendency to sit and kill time because I feel too lazy
or too tired to do something better. It’s the ads and promotions and sales that are sent to my email and
plastered in the store windows, calling me to hurry into the stores and look
for bargains for Christmas gifts, or maybe just some new additions to my
wardrobe. It's the spirit of laziness that entices me every morning to stay in bed just a little longer. It's spending all my time being busy with my hands because then I feel like I'm accomplishing something. Sometimes it is even worship
music, which, although it feeds my soul and lifts my spirits, I often allow to become all this noise that drowns out the still, small voice of the Holy
Spirit and never allows me to quiet myself enough to listen.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I’m like a
kid making mudpies in the backyard when my Father has planned this
extraordinary adventure to the seashore and the mountains. He wants to show me so much more than I can
imagine, but for the most part, I am content with my small world and small
desires. I like to dream of far-off
adventure and the glories of eternity…but to actually leave my puddle and walk away from what feels like security and comfort in the little fenced-in
yard? It is difficult to focus your eyes
on the horizon when they have been stubbornly fixed on the ground beneath your
nose all day long.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">So what will
I do with this? How can I fight against
the enemy’s strategy to bind me to small-mindedness?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">I don’t know
all the answers. For all the Word I have
in my head, my sword arm still feels so weak. But the Word tells me that I must choose by faith, every day, to see
what is unseen. To lift my eyes from my
mudpies and see what God sees. “If then
you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ
is seated at the right hand of God. Set
your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. For you have died, and your life is hidden
with Christ in God. When Christ, who is
your life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.” </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Colossians 3:1-4<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">So what does
it mean to set my mind on things above? How do I practice this? Seek what
is above, where Jesus is. Seek His will,
His kingdom, His glory. Seek the
advancement of His kingdom and glory over the earth. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">But what
does that look like?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14.0pt; line-height: 115%;">Jesus is
going to reign forevermore, and I will reign with Him and share in His
glory! That is what He is preparing me
for in this earthly life. Right now, on
this earth, we are co-workers with Christ….co-creators with Him in the
restoration of all things which will be completed when He returns as King! We are a part of His restoration work
here. We have been newly created in
Christ for particular good works that He has prepared for us to carry out in
His name! That is our purpose and our
calling on this earth. And of primary
importance, our purpose is to know God intimately and to grow continually in
our knowledge of Him. As a result of
this, our lives here will be effective and fruitful in bringing Him glory and
accomplishing His will!</span></div>
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question remains: what does this look like in practical, daily life? How do I throw off the things that are not necessary
to an effective daily life, the things that slow me down and dim my sight of
eternity? How do I maintain a proper
perspective towards the responsibilities, opportunities, and tasks that are a
necessary part of daily life? How do I
determine what to emphasize more….the things I need to practice with increasing
passion and perseverance in order to develop the gifts God has placed in me,
grow in Christ’s character, and be the most effective me?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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plenty of grand, searching questions, but I lack answers. Yet the Word says, “If any man lack wisdom,
let him ask of God.” It says that Jesus
has become my wisdom from God. His life
in me supplies all the wisdom and all the resources I need for life and
godliness. So then the question is how
can I tap into this source of amazing life and wisdom? </span></div>
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Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-41383350351695758272015-12-17T13:58:00.001-05:002015-12-17T13:58:30.041-05:00Not All Who Wander Are LostLife is tough.<br />
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Sometimes it is downright chaos.<br />
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Sometimes we get lost.<br />
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I've been a little lost lately. There are so many things I wanted to write. Many things still left to share from my time in Romania. Pictures to post. I've been back in the States nearly two weeks and where does the time go? People want to hear about my experiences and I don't want to keep it to myself, but sometimes the words won't come.<br />
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I came home eager to see my family and make things festively fun for the holidays and enjoy Christmas. Funny thing is,life doesn't stick to my script. I should know that by now. Christmas is all about God with us. But Jesus didn't come to make our lives all warm and cozy and fun,, He didn't come to give us a beautifully constructed holiday celebration, full of tastefully decorated homes, special food, thoughtful gifts, warm fuzzies, happy music, and family harmony. All of these things are great when you have them, and we can give thanks in our enjoyment of them. But they don't make Christmas.<br />
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And what about when life gets messy? When fear and faith collide in your soul and it gets ugly? When your eyes begin to open wider to the cosmic war we live in, the war between two kingdoms...and you feel powerless to stand? When hearts are broken and family is complicated and we struggle to understand, to make some connection? When the needs and pressures and work and junk of everyday life keeps piling up and overwhelming you and it's all you can do to keep putting one foot in front of the other?<br />
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I'm not writing because I have any answers or some fresh insight to share. I'm writing because I'm full of questions. Because I don't understand. Because I'm just trying to keep my head above water. And trying desperately to cling to the belief that God's plans for me, for all of us, are hope and a good future. Not because life will get easier. Not because we've been promised the answers. Not because we're ever going to feel equal to the task.<br />
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Simply because God is here. And He is our hope. He is our future.<br />
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We fill ourselves up with so much stuff and think we have it pretty good and it's easy to forget that our only good in life is God. That without Him, we have nothing. We are poor, blind, naked, destitute. Apart from Christ, we are pitiable wretches.<br />
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Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me.....<br />
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I have done nothing to deserve redemption. Jesus has done everything.<br />
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I. Need. Jesus.<br />
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The more I travel this life, the less I seem to know. But I know this....I need Him. I don't know it enough. I want to know it more. There is nothing that matters more in this life than to know the one thing John Newton still remembered at the end of his life.....<br />
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"I am a great sinner, and Christ is a great Savior."<br />
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John Newton has become one of my mentors of late, as I have been reading a wonderful book compiled from his scores of pastoral letters throughout the years of his service to Christ. Newton On The Christian Life by Tony Reinke is a rare, golden gem of a book. This is a bit of a rabbit trail, but if you can get your hands on a copy, I highly recommend the reading. I've read a ton of books, and I don't usually mark them up, but when I had gotten a short way into this one and was compelled to pull out my highlighters and start underlining, I knew this was a special book! John Newton was filled with Godly wisdom, and He clung to the simple power of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. He wrote letter after letter to friends and those under his spiritual care, encouraging and challenging them in the Christian life. Now his writings are feeding my soul with the rich truths of the Gospel.<br />
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I don't know a better way to tie down this wandering post than with another gem of wisdom from the lips of Newton. I quote:<br />
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"This is faith: a renouncing of everything we are apt to call our own, and relying wholly upon the blood, righteousness, and intercession of Jesus."<br />
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This is profound. This is what I am truly wrestling with right now. To lay down everything I think I am and everything I wish to be and whatever others may think I am and everything else that gives me some sort of merit in my own mind. To lay down all of my efforts to build a better me. To embrace the reality that I will always be wholly insufficient and bankrupt, and to cast myself fully on the all-sufficiency of my Savior Jesus.<br />
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He is ALL my righteousness. ALL my wisdom. ALL my sanctification. ALL that is lacking in me. ALL I can never be, never do for God. The Victory I can never win. The Love I can never give. The Fruit I can never produce. It is the power of Christ living in me that will do the impossible. Christ in me, the hope of glory. (Col. 1:27) My only hope of bringing glory to God, now and forever.<br />
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So yes, I've been a bit lost. There is so much I can't make sense of. There is the pain of everything that is not what it should be. There is the crush of endless things unsaid, undone, undeveloped, unfinished. But I still have hope. I will let John Newton close for me because he expresses this hope so well....<br />
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"I am not what I ought to be; I am not what I want to be; I am not what I hope to be in another world: but still I am not what I once used to be, and by the grace of God I am what I am." -John Newton<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-34163231883809374642015-11-13T07:19:00.000-05:002015-11-13T07:19:29.463-05:00Beyond The Wardrobe: Under The Waterfall"If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink! Whoever believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will flow rivers of living water." John 7:37-38<br />
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So....that week back in July when I stepped through the wardrobe....when I entered this unique fellowship called the Lamplighter Guild?<br />
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It was like standing under a waterfall.<br />
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I was overwhelmingly drenched in the love of Jesus, in the living, transforming power of His words, in the intimacy of His call for me to share in His creative work on earth! I surrendered my whole being to His fullness and was carried away in the flood of His glory!<br />
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I was experiencing the water of Life....the Life of Jesus coursing over me and through me as I had never known before. I can't describe to you the wonder of the moment when this revelation began to break over my heart and mind. I felt as if I'd been waiting my entire life for this. Even though I became a child of God at a tender age, I spent much of my life drinking from polluted, broken cisterns. How do you explain the way God breaks a dam, the way living water suddenly flows freely through a soul? I knew that at last I was drinking deeply of the Living Water, deeper than I had ever tasted before.....and it drove out every other thirst. All those years, I had known with my head that Jesus offers Living Water that is supposed to satisfy my soul. Since that week at the Guild, I know it is real. I know it in the depths of my being.<br />
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Do you want to know what happened as I was caught up in the exhilaration of the waterfall pouring over me? The enemy tried to sabotage my joy. He sent fear to present me with a picture. I saw myself standing under this immense waterfall with a measly little cup. There I was, trying desperately to catch what I could of this life-giving water, so I could hold onto it after the rush was over. You know what it feels like when you have a spiritual mountaintop experience, It is so wonderful while it lasts....but then you have to go back down into the valley, and soon the glory fades away. Fear was telling me that when I left the atmosphere and community of the Guild, I would be leaving the waterfall behind. What precious little I could keep contained in my cup was all I would retain of this water. I would try to hoard my treasure to make it last....but it could only last so long.<br />
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When I asked Jesus to confront this fear, He showed me what I wasn't seeing....I was never meant to hold this water.<br />
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Yes, you can hold a bit of water in a cup. But you can't hold a waterfall.<br />
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I never had the waterfall in my hands. The waterfall had me. Captured in the torrent of Someone far stronger than myself. Filled to overflowing with a Life that has no limits.<br />
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And this idea that leaving the Guild would mean walking away from the waterfall? Lies.<br />
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No one lives under a waterfall. But although I stepped out of the torrent, I never have to leave this driving force, this source of vibrant life.<br />
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The waterfall is inside me.<br />
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I will not always or often experience this rushing, roaring, soaking, euphoric force....rather it becomes the very life flowing through my veins, my entire essence....as I continually drink from the essence of Christ in me! This is the Living Water that Jesus speaks of in the Bible. It is Jesus Himself, His very life flowing through us. He is always filling us, spilling over us, flowing through us, sustaining us in every aspect and every season of our lives.<br />
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Jesus invites every one of us to come to Him and drink. He says, "Everyone who drinks of this water (anything other than Christ that we seek to satisfy ourselves) will be thirsty again. But whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a SPRING of <i>Living Water </i>WELLING UP to eternal life." John 4<br />
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Scripture describes the water of life as a well, a fountain, a spring, and a river. As I meditated on these things, the Holy Spirit showed me different ways that this water can work in our lives. <br />
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One of the key Scriptures we looked at during the Guild is Romans 5:3-5.<br />
"we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that <i>suffering</i> produces endurance, and <i>endurance</i> produces character, and <i>character</i> produces hope, and <i>hope</i> does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured out in our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us."<br />
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God was emphasizing to us the necessary work of suffering in the believer's life. We saw that sometimes He chooses to wound us, out of His sovereign love, in order to bring us into deeper intimacy with Himself, the only One who can complete us. That deeper intimacy expresses itself in worship. <br />
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A well is deep. Some wells are drilled deep into rock to find a source of pure underground water. Suffering in our lives is like the drill, painfully penetrating deep into the layers of a heart, producing intense pressure, until it seems that something must break. But God says He is near to the brokenhearted. And when our hearts break under the pressure of His hand, what comes forth is the life of Jesus Christ! Only God knows how to tap into the deep waters of a heart that is trusting in Him, and so the suffering produces character....like drilling into rock to reach pure, cold water. And the Living Water begins to well up stronger in joy....the joy of the Lord is our strength! This joy is greater than the pain of temporary circumstances and the trials of life. The greater the pressure of the underground water, the stronger it wells up towards the surface, until it flows out in a spring of fresh hope....hope that will not disappoint us because it is not based on earthly things, but on the eternal promises of God. <br />
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So out of the deep places of suffering, the water wells up in joy and flows out in hope.....and now picture a fountain springing high into the air....this life of Jesus within you can no longer be contained, and it springs up in worship....this greater, intimate knowledge of Jesus that comes out of suffering and being formed into His character! As you see Him better, you will be in awe of His beauty, love, and mercy. His beauty makes your life attractive to others, just like a sparkling, gushing fountain of refreshing water.<br />
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And then come the rivers....as Jesus proclaimed, rivers of living water flow out of your heart. Not a river....but RIVERS! So the life of Jesus flows from you in different directions, touching the people close to you, and running farther out to everyone who encounters your life, until the influence of your life in Christ is reaching people you don't even know about in ways you can't imagine! All of us who have been re-born in Christ carry His life to the world....we carry His Story to all the people, the objects of His unfathomable love! <br />
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The last thing I want to bring out is that water is fluid. It is like art....creative and unique in every life. It is always in motion, changing shape and direction and intensity. But this life of Jesus in us will steadily increase in its intensity, through the constant working of the Holy Spirit. It keeps welling up stronger into the eternal life that is ours in Christ, and as we grow in our intimate knowledge of Him, we grow in the conscious experience of eternal life. This water keeps moving forward, keeps cleansing us of every impurity, keeps carrying us further in to the grace and power and presence of Jesus.<br />
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And the Water of Life never runs dry. It is endless, relentless, and will never leave you.<br />
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The waterfall is inside you. <br />
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Amen, Lord Jesus.....let the river flow!<br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-33769366021282214372015-11-04T06:45:00.002-05:002015-11-04T06:45:37.034-05:00Romania: Our Doings and CelebrationsNow that I've been here several weeks, Romania is beginning to feel a bit more like home.<br />
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Life here is not so different from America, but it does take some getting used to, and it has been a great learning experience so far. We've had some highlights and celebrations in the last couple weeks, and I thought you would enjoy a peak at life in our little nest.<br />
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We celebrated Chili Bean's third birthday. The hats were endured, but the treats were a huge hit!<br />
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This past Sunday, I was blessed to be part of a special event in one of the girls' lives. Rachel (name changed for security purposes) was baptized into Christ, along with 29 other believers! The wonderful evangelical church they attend makes a beautiful celebration out of this step of faith. They held a special service in a pretty location. Each emergence from the water was met with joyful song and applause. The radiant smiles on the faces of those baptized was the most beautiful thing of all!</div>
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Buried with Him in death....raised with Him to new life! She has the most beautiful smile!</div>
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Beyond this, I am learning a little of the Romanian language, with the help of Ana (name changed), who is a willing and encouraging teacher. I am helping her to grow in English vocabulary and comprehension as we are reading Bible stories together in English. We have a lot of fun with this!</div>
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I've also enjoyed attending the Friday night youth church with the girls and taking part in a special craft day with the ladies of the church to help raise money for their new building. It is a vibrant and growing church body, so they are needing to expand their facilities. </div>
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Once a week, I go with a small group of missionaries and volunteers to a mental hospital quite a ways outside the city. This is a ministry I was introduced to on my first visit to Romania, and now I get to be involved again. We go in to to bring some sunshine to the residents. We'll do some kind of simple craft or activity with them, sing some of their favorite songs, and supply plenty of snacks. It is something they look forward to every week. The lady who oversees this ministry has been going in for many years and by God's grace has been able to help facilitate significant improvements to the hospital.</div>
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As with all of life, some days here are pleasant and meaningful, while other days I feel down, listless, and weary. One day I can feel a great sense of purpose in being here, and the next day it feels pointless. And in the midst of it all, God's grace remains sufficient! He continues to teach me to fix my eyes on Him for the strength to walk on the waves rather than tangling myself in the tide of my emotions and human understanding. His thoughts are infinitely higher than mine, and His ways are astonishingly greater than I can fathom! The prayer of my heart is to press deeper into Him each day He allows me to be here and wherever He leads me after that. If you pray for me, ask Jesus to give me the grace to grow in surrender to the flow of His life, and that all who encounter me will encounter Him. Let all the glory and honor and praise go to Him!</div>
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May your souls grow and prosper in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!</div>
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Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-91141999060006510122015-10-29T09:17:00.001-04:002015-11-11T05:37:38.339-05:00Swimming Upstream<span style="font-size: large;">Procrastination has been making itself quite comfortable in my life lately. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">No matter how many noble intentions I hold, they will never translate to one word written on this page. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So this desperately needed reminder from God yesterday? </span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;">Your actions will always follow your beliefs. If you accept defeat, than that is what you will get. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">That is a favorite quote from one of my all-time favorite movies, which I have previously quoted here....Facing The Giants. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">When I opened my journal back several months and there it was on the page....Bam! Gotcha!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">I thought I'd have all kinds of time to write while I am in Romania. But guess how that is working for me? The more freedom I have in my schedule, the more I dance with procrastination and distraction. A fog of confusion and mental lethargy seems to hang over my mind. And I begin to crack the door open to listen to the whispers of defeat. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">My God, in His unstoppable love and extravagant mercy, is not holding the past against me. Not even my failures of yesterday. Instead of guilting me, He is cheering me on! He's saying, Forget yesterday. Forget what is behind. Leave it under the blood of my Son. Move forward today. Press on to what is ahead! Never give up to Satan, for he is a defeated enemy! Never, never, never, never give up! Don't you make an agreement with defeat. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Because I am greater. I am greater than your fears of failure, greater than your mental fog, greater than your weariness, greater than your distraction, greater than the perfectionist illusion that paralyzes you....I Am in you, and I Am greater than the enemy of your soul who is doing everything he can to render you unfruitful and ineffective in your knowledge of me and to prevent you from bringing me glory with your life! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">He speaks to me in language I understand. "Kari, don't you put down that pen having done any less than your best. Don't fear those giants. Just write for Me. Give Me your absolute best and leave the results up to Me. You'll never know how far I can take you until you step out on the water and keep on putting one foot in front of the other, and never take your eyes off Me!"</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">So this is what I want to do. God gave me some revelations of His Word during and after my week at the Lamplighter Guild that were amazing to me at the time. Now I need to recover some of that amazement, and I'd like to invite you to go back with me as I share some of the treasures He gave to my heart. I hope to make this a series of several posts in the next few weeks. And you may also see some updates on my experiences here in Eastern Europe sprinkled in for a change of pace! </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">For our mutual encouragement, I will leave you with the word God gave me as I was embarking on my adventure to Romania, and what I believe He is still speaking into me as I wrestle with the daily conflict, whether it be over my responsibilities here, or my stewardship of the time and resources He gives me, or how to develop the gifts He has created in me, or how to fight my battles in prayer, etc.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">"Fear not, for I am with you. Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Lord Jesus, train our eyes on Your face today. Take us deeper into Your fullness. We are Yours.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">Lord.....help us.</span>Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-78154951614789458552015-10-22T06:58:00.001-04:002015-10-22T06:58:27.481-04:00Romania: Settling InHello from the other side of the pond, my friends! Unless you happen to be reading this blog from the same side....which would be totally cool.<br />
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So here I am in Romania....it's already been two weeks! Thanks to Father for a smooth journey and an enjoyable week traveling around the country. <br />
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After resting up a bit from jet lag, I spent the first few days here poring over destinations, travel itinerary, and accommodations with my new friend, Edith. We set off on a Saturday morning to catch the train that would take us to explore various parts of the Romanian landscape. <br />
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Our first stop: Alba Uilia, where we explored an old citadel. Romania has many such fortress cities, remnants from the old days when this was not one united country and they needed protection from invaders.<br />
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Inside the citadel....the gate.</div>
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We got plenty of exercise and enjoyed a night's stay at a four star hotel....it was actually quite affordable here!</div>
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Then we were off to spend a few days in the Transylvanian Alps region in central Romania. We stayed in the historic town center in Brasov, an old fortress town built against a mountain and quite a popular tourist destination. Taking advantage of the free walking tour was a great way to learn about the history of the town, see the main historical sites, and learn about the legends and truth of the mysterious Transylvania and its famed villain/hero, Count Dracula. </div>
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Both Edith and I being lovers of natural beauty over historic, we made sure to take in some of the surrounding mountain scenery. We did visit Bran Castle, the place made famous by Bram Stoker's Dracula, although the real person upon whom the character is based may or may not have actually ever lived at the castle. </div>
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But the best day of all was when we visited Poiana Brasov, a nearby ski resort, and took the cable car to the top of the mountain. The views were breathtaking! You'll be seeing a lot of mountaintop pictures on Facebook...being on top of the world always gets me carried away!</div>
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The last few days of our trip were spent on the Black Sea coast, walking on the beach and relaxing in our apartment. We were on a summer vacation strip which was practically abandoned, except for the busy traffic flow....we basically had the beach to ourselves! There was no swimming, but I may have gotten slightly wet.....</div>
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It was neat to be able to cross an entire country in a week (without traveling every single day!) and get a varied glimpse of the history and scenery Romania has to offer. There was much more we could have seen, but I think we got a good sampling.</div>
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Edith and I returned from our wanderings on Sunday morning via the overnight train....we crossed from the western border to the eastern in one night! The last few days have been filled with various things. I was able to get more settled in at the apartment where I'm living with three girls, and I've had time with the girls' houseparents, Scott and Carolyn, getting up to speed on what I need to know and the responsibilities I will be covering.</div>
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Scott and Carolyn left for the States early this morning. So it's just the four of us now! I wish I could feel like I have it all together....but I don't. Maybe I'm not supposed to. We cling so stubbornly to our own understanding and capabilities, do we not? I hate feeling helpless, inadequate, being at a loss for what to do or say next or how to plan. But all the time, God is gently drawing me to look to Him for every need, to trust Him fully, to let go of what control I think I have and depend on Him for everything. I have a feeling He's getting ready to teach me a lot of this during the next six weeks. To be honest, this isn't such a difficult place to be in or a huge mountain to climb....it simply looks huge when I look to myself. And I think God uses so many of the "little", everyday kinds of challenges to teach us to move our trust from ourselves to Him. Sometimes He uses a truly insurmountable obstacle....but more often than not, He is simply teaching us the difference between our perspective and His in the small stuff. And in truth, as Jesus said, without Him we can do nothing....so even those little things we think we ought to be able to handle? We can't even trust ourselves there! </div>
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I will confess to feeling scared in my current position and a bit cut loose in a strange sea....But it is my Heavenly Father who brought me here and I trust His grace to see us through. Thank you for every prayer on our behalf, as we start to figure out a routine for the next six weeks, and as I seek the Lord to lead me by the free inspiration of His Spirit in doing life here with these beautiful young women.</div>
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May the grace and peace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirits today.</div>
Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8728374911395561683.post-3377033146991372042015-09-30T11:37:00.001-04:002015-09-30T11:37:24.200-04:00Romania: The ReturnThe days fly by and I promised to write about my upcoming adventure which is now almost upon me! So for those of you who keep up with my sporadic writings and have not been in the circles of the knowledge of my latest doings.... <br />
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Here's the short story....on Monday I am hopping on a jet plane and taking off across the pond to spend two months in Romania!<br />
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If you wish to stay for the long story, you are most welcome! It follows hereafter.<br />
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You may have noticed I've been talking a lot about the Lamplighter Guild. I will be talking about it again, you may be sure! This trip, in a way, is connected to the Guild, because God opened the door to Romania that very week in the mountains of New York!<br />
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Two years ago, I visited Romania as an intern with Rock of Hope Ministries. Some of the memoirs of that trip can be found on this blog. The missionaries I stayed with have a ministry to young women in one of the cities. They take in young women from late teens to early thirties who have grown up as orphans and never received the training and skills for healthy independence. The girls live in an apartment, with their "houseparents" right across the hall. So they live in an atmosphere of semi-independence while gaining the security, counsel, and help of parents which they still desperately need to gain stability in life. The missionaries help them get jobs or go back to school, learn to handle finances wisely and deal with the ins and outs of life as an adult. They are also giving these girls the experience of family and a place as daughters in their hearts. Above all, they point them to Jesus. <br />
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When I was in Romania the first time, I stayed in the apartment with the girls and got to be part of their daily life, to learn much about the culture and spiritual climate of Romania, and to get involved in some other ministries around the region. I did not feel specifically drawn or called to long-term ministry in the country, but I have stayed in touch with the missionary couple. <br />
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So, while I was at the Lamplighter Guild, I saw that I had received an email from these friends in Romania. I ignored most email and other communication that week, in order to focus solely on the projects and everything God was pouring into me during the experience. So it wasn't until a few days after I returned from New York that I opened and read the email. I thought my friends were just wanting to catch up with me a bit, but I never expected what they put before me.<br />
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The missionaries told me they were planning a six week trip to the States in the fall, and they had been praying about someone to come and stay with the girls currently in their program, while they are gone. They had been following some of my doings on social media, and God put me on their heart as someone who would be a good fit for this need. They were asking me to consider coming to stay for two months, as a sort of housemother for the girls. I was absolutely blown away by this proposal! It seemed like a huge deal at the beginning. They would trust me with this kind of responsibility in a foreign country where I only spent a few weeks? I was staggered by the hand of God, as I was just coming off the Guild week, filled to the brim with new things God was doing in my heart, in a place of fresh surrender to Him, and ready to say yes to whatever He might put before me. I believed from the first that this was a total God thing, and although I took my time to pray and think and give my final answer, I knew right away that there was nothing legitimate keeping me from saying yes to this.<br />
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God was working on my faith during the time I was considering this opportunity. In a short time after being asked to consider Romania, I was presented with a possibility of getting involved in Lamplighter ministries and developing my creative gifts in a venue that could open all kinds of doors! The privilege of serving with a ministry that has so profoundly impacted my life and follows a vision that I now passionately believe in would be a dream come true! While I sensed that God was also in this, I wondered if I would be able to take both paths. I was hesitant to make the decision about Romania until I knew for sure what this other opportunity would entail and how the timing would work out. As I was praying one morning about this dilemma, I sensed God telling me to move ahead in faith and give a sure yes. If I believed He was inviting me into this opportunity to work with Him in Romania, and I knew the only thing holding me back was a need to control the direction of my own future, I needed to surrender other possibilities and hopes to Him and follow the light He was giving me at that time. So I told God I would go to Romania. And I gave my friends the final answer. The very next day I finally got to touch base with someone about the Lamplighter opportunity, and it turned out I wouldn't be able to do what they had in mind because I was going to Romania. However, that doesn't mean that door is absolutely closed. God gave me peace that I made the right decision. I think He has some preparation He wants to do in me while I'm in Romania, some things to teach me that I will need in the next season, whether I get to follow a new dream or something God hasn't even put on my radar yet. <br />
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So there you have the gist of it. I leave on Monday. The last month has been crazy and I have been fighting a lot of stress and anxiety. I don't handle it all properly. But I'm learning. Jesus is using the pressure to shape me and teach me how to get into the battle and fight in His strength. What I want above all else is to bring Him glory. He knows our hearts and He honors those who are set on Him.<br />
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So what will I do in Romania? My main purpose is to be a steady presence for three Romanian young women in their apartment. I don't need to do a lot for them as much as be there as a friend and mentor, a stabilizing influence, and just do daily life with them. Beyond that, I can participate in other ministries around the city and surrounding area. I'll be connected with a network of other missionaries and ministry partners, so I'm not going to be entirely on my own. And I was invited to tour Romania with another missionary for a week before my friends leave for the States! Can you imagine how much fun I'll have with that? More travel, new experiences, beautiful country....I'm totally up for this!<br />
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I'll work on keeping you updated along the way. You'll see me here and on Facebook. No doubt there will be pictures! If you want to ask questions or chat, feel free to leave comments here or on my Facebook, or message me! I love the ability we have to stay connected around the world!<br />
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I don't know who is reading this blog. So let me just say, to those of you who have been or will be praying for me on this adventure, to those who have supported me financially, to those who have encouraged me in the Lord, and to those who actually read what I write here......THANK YOU! Each of you is a gift to me and a unique part of the story God is writing. And do you know what's even more amazing? Not only do each one of us get to be a character in God's story, but we get to intertwine with and influence each other's parts in the Story! <br />
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So here's to all of you, my friends, my brothers and sisters in the Spirit....YOU ARE AMAZING! AND YOU ARE SO LOVED BY OUR FATHER! <br />
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Live the adventure! <br />
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<br />Kari....His 4everhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10099402542011079105noreply@blogger.com0